Let Me State for the Record...

This morning I found myself reading a rather unexpected message along the lines of "How could you?" and "I expected more of you." It took me some time to figure out what the devil it could be in reference to, primarily because I tend to keep to familiar territory and it came from someone outside the KoH. Now that I know what that was all about, I want to make some things crystal clear.

First and foremost, I live my unlife to please only myself. If I choose to do something for someone else you can bet your blood there is a strong reason for it. Whether it is for financial gain, out of emotion because seeing them happy makes me happy, or to fulfill my personal sense of duty or (Ares forbid) charity, I am in some way going to benefit. Selfish? Hell, yeah. It is part of my vampiric legacy and upbringing, just as a strict sense of duty is.

That said, it is my choice to belong to the House of Heorot and serve it to the best of my abilities. However it must also be said that my service and duty toward the clan is at times reliant upon my feelings and opinions. For example, should the queen see fit to finally ally with Cap and his minions I can gurantee you would not see Creide taking part.

That indeed is the crux of this issue: my personal reasons. Where the matter at hand is concerned-- and let me be crystal clear here-- I have none. I could care less about any of the vampires on the opposing side. I do not know them or their personal politics and therefore literally do not care if they live or die. All that matters to me is the joy of war. They try to kill us, we try to kill them. Nameless soldiers on the field of battle, not that difficult to comprehend.

Let us be realistic here. How many armies would actually stop their attack completely because the other side is having some sort of get-together? A funeral, no less. Hello? We're um, at WAR here... Memorials should be reserved for those on the sidelines or stepping out of battle completely. The time for a soldier to give voice to mourning comes only after the fight is won or lost.

If they want to play the emotional card or whatever and sit in a group long enough to get wiped out, that is their business. If they want to hit us back, that is clan business. For those not involved with the war, it is none of your bloody business. It does not concern me in the least for people to post what they will about the clan or kingdom. Each is entitled to express their his or her opinions, however ignorant or poorly communicated they may be.

However, if you choose to take it upon yourself to step to me and have the audacity to pass judgement on me or my actions, be prepared for me to take it personally. Frankly, I would not suggest it unless you are ready and willing to be called out. As I have no doubt made clear to all that know me, I have no fear or qualms about fighting.

In case you have not noticed, I do not take kindly to being unduly criticized by someone outside the issue. Not having a stake in things or losing half your BP like the rest of us gives you absolutely no say in the matter. Nor do I appreciate being told that you "expected more of me." Where the hell do you get off? How dare you speak to me as if I should live by your standards? You, of all vampires, have absolutely no right to look down on anything I say or do.

I chose to overlook your... indiscretions and kept my opinions of what you did to myself on the basis of remaining on friendly terms. I even took your youth, status and immaturity into consideration both then and when you took it upon yourself to insult Oneirus. Now though, it is past time for you to have matured and realized that words can and do lead to actions. By now you should know enough to hold your tongue in matters that do not concern you. So be informed that I not only take your words as not only rude and uncalled for, but consider them a personal affront. It would be fully to your advantage to either attempt to make your peace or back off entirely.


The vampire in question spoke to me again they were directed to my blog. These quotes are taken from the conversation that followed. The name and other identifying information have been witheld to protect the guilty.

vampire: i will stay out of it

vampire: and im sry i said that

vampire: i was upset

vampire: i shouldnt have stuck my nose in where it didnt belong

Creide: *nod*

vampire: but obsidian to me is one of the gratest vamps ever

vampire: and i was hopeing her service would go well

Creide: yeah and i'm sure her little cronies were hoping we'd back off and let their alts build up cash for more weapons

Creide: fyi, the SC was attacking that night, in spite of the fact that KoH backed off for an entire day out of respect

vampire: well i know that i shouldnt have stuck my 2 cents in

vampire: i was upset

vampire: and i reget it cuz i have no right to judge u by what i think is right

vampire: u live by ur own rules

vampire: and if it dont break ur rules its right to u

Creide: yes...

Creide: see, and once again this is me being nicer than others would-- upset or not, you need to watch what you say

Creide: think first, speak after

vampire: i know

vampire: im sry

The apology has been accepted and I consider the matter satisfactorily closed.