"Luuucky"
Monday, November 14, 2005
Unlife is chaos. Yet... it is an intricately patterned chaos. Which makes it a contradiction. Which... almost makes sense. In other thoughts-- it is amazing how sometimes the things we long for, the things we seek out... turn to be the very thing we least want or need. Then honor prevails and we swim against the tide, determined to prove ourselves equal to the task at hand. This has been your philosophical C moment.
Have a variety of things on my mind just now. Other vamps mainly. The past few days have really been something. From meeting new ones (and them coming along to the auction site), to logging in to find a message from someone I barely knew was still unlive, to having a quick chat with an old buddy from my Ambassador days, it seems a wonderful time for getting in touch and all that. Plus two vamps close to my heart have finally settled their differences. I tell ya, it must be a vamp holiday season or something. Kodak moment all around! *lol*
Yes, yes, I am silly. Not that I care. Somebody has to have a spot o' fun in this city. ;) Think it springs from this odd mood I have been in of late. Those that know me best know I can be rather... multi-faceted even horribly contradictory at times-- and this is one of those times. I have my fangs sunk into so many tasks that it makes no sense and I am all kind of stressed. Yet I find myself filled with this strange, almost euphoric feeling. For the first time in a while-- and this may sound funny-- I feel truly at home in my own skin.
Hard to explain really. I have battled a few demons, personal and otherwise. I have won some and lost some. My changes have been both internal and external. Yet when all is said and done, I am doing just fine. Unlife will never be perfect; there will always be a couple of things I want to change or long for, but I am one pretty lucky vamp. Lucky in love, lucky in family, lucky in general. Who ever thought an evil vamp could feel so good about... good things?!
Ah, before I forget... if any one out there are a bit curious about what I look like and will be wearing for the big auction go join the group and look me up in the Description database. :D CBK is in there too. *checking out other entries, wide-eyed* Wow... interesting tidbits in there really. (Hm, also interesting to note that I too can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue. Yes, I really can. Just another one of those skillz.) Riiiight, so if you think you might like to have your very own personal C-slave for a week, hit the page for more info. Though I can tell you that the female slaves will be auctioned on Dec. 3 at 11pm. ;) http://uk.groups.yahoo.com/group/RavenBlack_TheAuction
On a final note... I would like to thank those of you that do pop by and read my pointless ramblings. Bless your dark li'l hearts! Seriously, I have no clue how you can stand it. *lol* Which is why it sort of blows me away when someone unexpectedly mentions my little corner of the city. So please do feel free to post comments, hit the tag-board, or give me a buzz.
OOC tidbit: The title is in quotes... because it is a quote. Yes. Brilliant, I know. Comes from an episode of Naruto. Er, the orignal fan-subbed version, not the dubbed thing that I cannot bring myself to watch. Not like I need to when I have every ep on CD and/or DVD already. *snickers and goes off to order some udon*
For Sale: One Creide to Highest Bidder
Saturday, November 12, 2005
I am still not quite sure what made me sign up for the big city-wide auction. Right, that is sort of a lie... I know exactly why I did it. Anyway, what is done is done and now all I have left to do is wait. Already picked out my outfit and everything. Not that I need to get into that either... So, on Dec. 3, I will take my place on the auction block, going to the highest bidder for a full week. Shouldn't be too bad. Will probably get to meet some new vamps and all that. Also hoping I fetch a fairly decent price, since I get half of it. :P No clue who in the world will bid, or more importantly win-- but I am very curious as to what I will wind up doing. At least I feel pretty secure with the knowledge that nobody out there has a vendetta against me that would make them buy me and torture me for a week. *lol* Er, I don't think so at least. Not that torture is always a bad thing...
Speaking of meeting new vamps, I met a ton last night. Not that I remember even half. Wild party, jello pool and all. Could've smacked a certain evil vamp for throwing me in (cold and slimey!) but he got pushed in too, which made it all better. >:) Eventually everybody that was still there wound up in it, so you can just imagine the mess. Maybe the old "messy is fun" thing actually does carry a speck of truth. Who knows? Too hungover to think too hard on it. Will say that I've thought about adding something about my dancing skillz to my auction description... but I won't.
Moving along, things are really hopping on the home front. Influx of new faces which means that my workload is heavier than ever. (Damn, I needed that party last night.) Relaxation is key at the moment. Mainly... because I sort of got myself worked into a tizzy yesterday. Sat there and went over ALL my TG paperwork-- and realized there is an emerging problem. One that bothers me a great deal because of the time and effort I have put into my work-- sifting and sorting through the countless vamps that come to our doors, organizing my system, coming up with ways to keep the trainees entertained and all. As a result I am shifting my focus a bit, putting a somewhat improved strategy into play. The trainees might not like it, but they will be all the better for it.
Ah yes, I have a new pet. His name is Nyoko but I am not sure he likes it, so it might be changed soon. It literally means "snake" which I fear is rather degrading since he is obviously far more than that. We are slowly bonding but it is a true challenge to read his reptilian mind. Nyoko is quite intelligent, possibly on par with a human, yet his telepathy is... off somehow. He forms very few words, using more sensations and emotions. He also seems a bit wary of CBK (it just might be mutual) but I know they will get along wonderfully in time. According to the pet care manual, a little patience and a firm hand will pay off in the end and result in a well-adjusted, useful and quite possibly affectionate pet. I have to admit that I am already quite fond of him, even if he does not have any venom.
What else can I say? A few things, I'm sure... but methinks I'll give it a rest. Thinking makes my head hurt too much and as always some things must be left locked away in my mind. Ooh, scary thought, scary place...
Walking in Shadows
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Sometimes it is almost like waking in a dream, a strange one where I cannot see my way in the darkness. A chill ghost mist floats by, mingling with the pale cobwebs that seem to grow in the corners of my mind. For a time I think that I can see... then in the end I realize that I was blindfolded all along, seeing only a dim sliver of the world through starlit vapors, twisting illusions in the wind. Illuminated at last I stand in confusion, not knowing black from white or right from wrong; simply knowing that all lies in shadows.
